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Sunday, December 30, 2012


What a hurtful word those four letters can make sometimes.

Why is it that we always seem to hurt the people that we love the most? I know that everyone says this, but it really is true. We can be so fake and kind to our biggest enemies but we are so open to saying hurtful things to people who we truly care about above anyone else.

Why is it so hard for a human being to just admit love and accept love? Why do we have to be so full of pride and anger that we can't admit something that we feel which represents something so sweet and pure?

Maybe, in that case, it's not really even love at all. It could just be the want to love or feel lust or acceptance from someone that you have already established a strong bond with.

Human beings are the most intelligent life forms created, yet we have the power to hurt people when it's totally unneccessary and meaningless. It just makes us feel better! Look at any other creature on earth; if they love something, they love it unconditionally despite its imperfections. They never fall out of love.

Look at a dog, for example. No matter how much you yell, hit, spit or abuse it, it is always willing to forgive if it feels even the smallest assurance of love.

Why is it so hard for humans to just forgive and be happy? I have so many questions on my mind right now that I wish I knew the answer to. God had a few tricks up his sleeve when he decided to create humans. It must be pretty amusing to watch all of the humans who feel the need to constantly fight and argue for no reason.

I had to get this off of my chest today. I hope everyone has someone who loves them unconditionally no matter what. We all deserve it!

And now I'll leave you with this amazing quote from Bob Marley...

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
- Bob Marley

Friday, December 28, 2012

pregnancy blog: 37 weeks

How far along? 37 weeks! I have a full term baby in my belly:)
Total weight gain/measurements: 35 pounds so far! Holy Moly, I have no clue how I've gained so much, especially since my appetite has decreased so much. I have to remind myself to eat sometimes! But 35 pounds just means baby girl is growing and healthy:)
Maternity clothes: Yes. Still wearing the same blah boring maternity clothes.
Stretch marks: None! WOO! If that changes in the next 3 weeks, I might cry.
Sleep: It's not too bad. Still waking up at least 3 times in the night to pee. And that's not the part that wakes me's the 2 minute struggle to roll this big belly over and stand up off my bed - HA!
Best moment this week: Christmas, ofcourse! I spent some much needed time with my brothers and family. Love them!
Miss anything? Shaving my legs without the struggle. And my appetite.
Movement: Less movement now that there is less room. But she still moves all the time!
Food cravings: Not really. Just extremely thirsty all of the time.
Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope.
Gender: Girl!
Labor signs: I've been having some Braxton Hicks contractions finally! They don't feel painful at all. It just feels like the top of my stomach is tightening and it gets really hard. I went for my 37 week checkup and they said I was not dilated at all, but I was 25% effaced! Not sure if that makes a whole lot of difference at this point but it was still exciting to hear:)
Symptoms: Just having to pee a lot and my heartburn has come back!
Belly button in or out? In!
Engagement ring on or off? On:)
Happy or moody most of the time: Very happy!
Looking forward to: Her arrival. That's all I'm thinking about right now. I just want to hold her in my arms and kiss and cuddle her all day.

Monday, December 10, 2012

pregnancy blog: 31-34 weeks

34 weeks
I have been slacking on my pregnancy posts. It's been 4 weeks! Here are a few pictures from weeks 31&32.
31 weeks
32 weeks

How far along? 34 weeks + 3 days
Total weight gain/measurements: 30 pounds so far! It still seems like so much to me but I've been feeling great and still eating healthy!
Maternity clothes: Yes. Weirdly though, I can somehow fit into a few non-maternity shorts now. Maybe because she is a lot higher? Idk, but I am happy about it!
Stretch marks: None! And still using Palmer's Cocoa Butter Massage Lotion for Stretch Marks everyday around my belly, sides, and breasts.
Sleep: It was going awesome for the last 3 weeks. Then, starting about 4 nights ago, I could not stop tossing and turning. I never realized how much of a struggle it would become just to turn from one side to the other, but it wakes me up everytime!
Best moment this week: Going shopping with my Mom. We bought the last few things I needed for little M! Now all we have to do is wait. Also, I FINALLY started my hypnobirthing class. It was so interesting and I learned a lot just in the first class. I am so excited to learn more!
Miss anything? Being able to easily shave my legs.
Movement: Less movement now that there is less room. But she still moves all the time!

Food cravings:Anything sweet. And blueberry bagels.
Anything making you queasy or sick? Nope.
Gender: Girl!
Labor signs: None. Phew.

Symptoms: Extremely short of breath. It's become a constant symptom now and sometimes I have to lay down on my left side because I can't catch my breath. Other than that, just the feeling of constantly having to pee and becoming a lot more fatigued.
Belly button in or out? In!

Engagement ring on or off? On:)
Happy or moody most of the time: Very happy!
Looking forward to: FINALLY putting together her nursery! 


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